| - Rain Well im writing again. Today and last nite has been hell for me. I miss her so much. And at the moment i want to take back all those things i said and just hold her in my arms and tell her im sry and i will never put us through that again and that we will be together forever, but i cant. I cant go back on what i said at this time. I made my mistakeand now i gotta stay with it.
Everything i do i retrace memorys of her. I lay in my bed and the countless hours spent in eachothers arms comes back. I go to put on my favorite hat that she had gotten me for my birthday and remember those hours we spent walking around the mall, which reminds me of the many times we did. I look through the movies i have and see Breaking All the rules. I remember our very first date to see the movie in theaters. Our first kiss, sitting on the bench waiting for our ride. Then i sit to myself and notice the cut on my leg, which reminds me of the time she came to visit me in the hospital.
I sit and cry holding the bear she got me for christmas and i cry some more. I go to pick up the phone and begin to dial the number that has been burned into the back of my heart. I look through my caller id and see the number and the name cawley. I go through my phonebook on my phone and see her name.I look in my closet and see the shirts she made fun of so much and i laugh a little then am reminded of her. I listien to songs about love, songs about hate, songs about songs, and songs about nothing. Some how, someway, all these songs have sum sort of meaning that relates to her.
After all these things i think about it........was it the right decision?
After thinking about this, i remember what kristina told me last nite...."if ur love was really ment to be, it will all work out". I really hope she was rite and that if we were really ment to be together that we will end up in each others arms once again..............
Rain By Breaking Benjamin
Take a photograph,
It'll be the last,
Not a dollar or a crowd could ever keep me here,
I don't have a past
I just have a chance,
Not a family or honest plea remains to say,
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
Is it you I want,
Or just the notion
Of a heart to wrap around so I can find my way around
Safe to say from here,
Your getting closer now,
We are never sad cause we are not allowed to be
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
To lie here under you,
Is all that I could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,
To lie here under you is all that i could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
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